Life Update: September 2019

Hello and welcome back to the blog! Today’s post is an update on my life lately including how I’ve been feeling,  some things I’ve been going through, what I’ve been doing + more! You know the drill — let’s get into it.

I want to be transparent because I wouldn’t feel like I’m being true to myself if I didn’t share this. To be honest, I’m going through a rough patch in my life right now and I’m not doing too well — like crying, quarter-life crisis rough patch. I feel a little embarrassed to admit that, but it’s been my reality these past few weeks. I touched on this a bit in my recent Let’s Talk post, but to sum it up, I’m at a point in my life where a lot of things are out of my control and I’m having to wait for changes and next steps that I not only really want, but I feel like I need. This is something we all go through here and there, but it’s hitting me particularly hard right now and every day I’m feeling incredibly stuck and stagnant. Things that would normally make me happy and excited aren’t fulfilling me during this waiting period, and I’ve been doing my best to stay busy to keep my mind off of it because that seems to be the only thing that somewhat helps.

For instance, one of the projects I’ve been diving into to distract myself is our house. This is always a work in progress, but I’ve really made it my main focus over the past week or so. It helps me feel accomplished and like I’m moving forward, which has done wonders for me because it simply doesn’t give me the time or energy to think about things that are upsetting me. I’m sharing this because if you’re going through the same thing, I encourage you to pinpoint why you’re feeling that way and if it’s something that’s out of your control, keep yourself busy with healthy and productive things that you can control. These house projects have really been my therapy and saving grace, and I’m grateful that Justin is supporting me in tackling them because of that.

Lucia has helped me a ton through this rough patch too, even if she doesn’t know it (which I’m SURE she doesn’t, but I’d like to think she does). I’ve been working from home a ton lately and I jokingly call her my little coworker. It’s been nice to just have her around and I don’t feel like I’m ever alone, and that’s comforting. We always have what we call “sleepover nights” with her in our bed every Saturday, but she’s snuck in a couple extra times because I feel like I just need her cuddles (I’m giggling, but really). Love ya, little BFF.

My 26th birthday is the weekend (tomorrow the 6th) and though I’m not necessarily in the mood to celebrate, I am hopeful that this next year brings good things my way. I don’t know where I thought I’d be at 26, but I do know that I have so many good things to be thankful for regardless. I’m hoping to have a low-key weekend and come up with a plan of things I’d like to accomplish on my own and with Justin this next year. I really think it will help give me the drive and focus that I need during this hazy period.

On a lighter note, Justin and I finished the latest season of 13 Reasons Why last week and we loved it! I found it to be a little less heavy than the other seasons, while still super interesting and full of twists. I loved the concept of trying to figure out who murdered Bryce and I think that was the right choice for the storyline since he was so hated by the audience. Showing the “good” side of Bryce and how he evolved as a person before his death was a cool concept as well. I could have easily watched it all in a day or two because it was THAT good, but I’m glad we made it last a few days so we could really take time to enjoy it. If you haven’t seen it, definitely watch!

I have two big throwback concerts to attend next week. My friend Natalie invited me to see the Backstreet Boys concert (this will be my third one over the last few years 😂 — who else’s favorite was Brian?!) and I’m going with Justin to see the Jonas Brothers as a birthday gift. What year is it again?! I never thought I’d have a week like this in 2019 (lol), but I’m not mad about it. I’ve been wanting to see the Jonas Brothers in concert since I was a teenager, so it’s cool to finally get to live that out now.

As for more house stuff, our new dresser and the light fixture for our office are getting delivered today and I’m pumped for it! I’ve never had to buy a dresser before because Justin and I have been using mine and my brother’s from when I was 5 years old (which are in shockingly good condition), so it will be nice to have something new and different. I didn’t think we’d still be replacing light fixtures almost a year into living at our house, but hey, that keeps the fun of redecorating going! 😉 I’ll be sure to share pics on my Instagram and blog.

I seriously can’t believe that summer is almost over and I’m honestly so sad to see it go. I’m not ready for fall at all and time feels like it’s going by so quickly and so slow at the same time. Summer is my favorite season by far and I’ve loved being able to spend so much time outside with Lucia. I am looking forward to dressing her up for Halloween though — let me know if you have any ridiculous costume suggestions! You best believe I’ve already been scrolling through Amazon for some inspo.

Thank you so much for reading and listening to me vent. Like I said, I wanted to speak on what I’m going through because I know some of you may be experiencing the same thing and privately hoping you’re not alone. You’re not and remember that everything is temporary. Anyway, have a great weekend and keep your head up!